I’m sitting on my back porch. I have one of those now.

I hear the highway. So distant. Barely noticeable. Without tuning my ears to the frequency I wouldn’t be aware of it.

Unavoidable is the rustling of the trees. The breeze singing music for my dog and I.

Above us, a hawk in gliding revolutions, looking for late breakfast or early lunch.

It’s peaceful.

And there’s one ingredient that made it all happen.

Self-trust.

There’s been no plan with any of this…

The move, having twins, starting a business, holding space.

It’s been written by a rule and a mantra.

The rule:

Never look back on your life and ask where was your courage.

The mantra:

You spend every second of your life with one person. Make that the person you trust the most.

It was these words I’d uttered to a friend.

His response, “My friend, have you read Emerson’s Self-Reliance?”

He asked me that while sitting on a bench directly across from the library.

Within minutes, I’d walked to the Library Catalog computer.

Typed “Emerson”

Found his essays.

Flipped to Self-Reliance.

I checked it out and let it sit awhile.

When my intuition told me it was time, I flipped through it. And immediately had to record this video.

I believe the earth is suffering from a self-trust epidemic.

And I’m convinced I’m on earth to set about solving that problem for as many people as I can.

Because there are no accidents. Without trust, I’d never have ended up here.

Lately, I’ve been listening to Alan Watts lectures as I drive to and from coffee meet ups with locals.

And he said something that made me laugh and deepened meaning.

If you don’t trust yourself, how can you trust your mistrust in yourself?

And so the question becomes the work.

And so the work becomes the mission.

This video focused on a single line from the passage:

with the exercise of self-trust, new powers shall appear

And indeed they do.

In our last session, a client of mine thought on an employee.

She knew the experience was off, but neglected the gut to opt for the head.

The strategy. The concessions. The different words she could use to get them onside.

But this is the power of the work.

She didn’t need those things…the logical, tidy, solution-based things.

It was deeper than that.

Trust the gut, your intuition, your conviction…whatever you like to call it…and you’ll live with yourself.

You’ll never look back and ask where was your courage.

You’re naturally courageous.

And so she was…

Easy? No.

Self-trust isn’t signing the dotted line on easy.

It’s not a contract. It’s a blood pact.

It’s the loudest voice in the room being owned by you…no one else.

And being at peace with what it says.

And upon exercising this, as Emerson states, new powers appear.

You know more of what you’re capable of.

​Give the video a watch if you’re ready to access new powers.

-C